Gryningspyromanen

I don't really know what to say.
Or what to do.
I just now that I want to get away from here.
To get away from everything.
Att bara få vara någonstans där jag inte måste göra någonting.
Jag vill komma bort.
Gömma mig ifrån verkligenheten och helst aldrig igen komma fram.
But I can't
If I could I would just take a bag and go, now, right fucking now.
But I have my beloved cats, and tomorrow I'm helping out at Gbg hardcore fest and on Sunday I'm working and on Tuesday I have an interview and still after all that I'll still have my cats.
But maybe it can be fixed someway, if I still feel like this later on, I probably will.

Home

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Kärlekens alla färjor

Need to throw up, and it will be SUPER disgusting cause it was a pretty long time since I ate.
Damn damn damn damn.

It tasted awful,
But the worst thing was that it felt so damn good.

Radar Detector

I'm so damn tired.
Want to sleep forever.
Yes yes yes.
Ever and ever.

Bruises

Find a cure
find a cure for my life

Oh my god
oh you think I'm in control
Oh my god
oh you think it's all for fun

Find a cure
find a cure for my life

Put a price
put a price on my soul

Build a wall
Build a fortress around my heart

Oh my god
oh you think I'm in control
Oh my god
oh you think it's all for fun

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like....
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh

Jag har gått för långt, kan inte sluta gå
Hjärtat sitter utanpå, slår inte som det brukar slå
I ett ensamt rum, en sekund blir tusen år
För ljus att nå. Så djupa sår 
Sjunker lite lägre för varenda gång jag vänder om
Men jag vänder om, än en gång
Orden fastnar halvvägs, jag vet inte hur jag bär mig åt
Samma gamla visa, men vet inte vad det är förlåt

Jag har gått så långt, nästan blivit van
Historien upprepar sig och slutar alltid likadant
Sidan som går vidare har någon redan rivit av
Så jag griper tag i vita blad
Om inte jag var feg, om inte du var den som hade rätt
Hade väl du aldrig kunnat genomskåda allt som skett
Samma gamla visa, men vet inte vad det är förlåt

Like Suicide

I can't really figure this self hating thing out,
I mean, all these pictures just makes me stop and stare, I think I could stare at them forever and ever, that girl can't be me, it has to be someone else, someone beautiful,
Amazingly lovable exquisite beautiful.
How can that be?
All this self hatred, and some pictures just stun me.
Well my eyes is a favorite part of me, it's not like any of these pictures is in full figure.
But still, that girl in the pictures, that isn't me!
And I don't know who she is!
But I'd like to find out.

My Moon, My Man